Well, this is about how we face the world. God gives us a condition, then He let us choose. But sometimes we don’t realize it and let it all be, flowing like water.
Several months ago, I met a friend. His name is Radit. He inspired and influenced me a lot. First I met him, I knew he’s a talkative boy. Then we often gathered. I saw happiness and joy from his soul. He always succeed in making us, his friends, laugh out loud, in everytime we gather. His jokes are natural, sometimes too cruel, but it’s fun. Umm, to be honest, he’s bit lil “lebay” or “alay” or any words similar to that meaning. Haha. Sometimes he’s childish, too. His imagination is so wild that she acted as a detective or anything, she can be anything, just like a little child with no-boundary imagination.
Then I asked, what can make him so that cheerful? And I saw it so pure, no any malingering. What is the key of that happiness?? Don’t he have any problems? Then, I think about it over and over again. He’s handsome-but don’t have any girlfriend, haha-, have many friends, activist in one of UKM in my campus, rich but modest, his academic accomplishment is not excellent but not bad. That’s all. Yeah, those reasons are more than enough to get a perfect life.
But, at last, I realize that what I thougt before is absolutely wrong. He’s not that happy, not as I saw it. He didn’t tell me what exactly she felt, but I know that his love story made him broken and burned inside.
Then slowly I asked, “Radit, how can you laugh out loud when you cried inside?”
He said, “It’s easy to pretend, right? And I feel hapiness when I laugh with you, with friends, because that’s what friends are for, to ease your pain. Even now I don’t know whether I really happy or just pretend to be happy.”
Waaw, he’s such a good actor.
It makes me realize that when God give you a hard problem, and automatically it’s packed with a bad feeling called sadness, you still have choice whether you accept it without any resistance or try to destroy that damn feeling and pretend to be happy.
I just realize that pretending is something important in our life. Like a song “Pretend” with lyrics: Pretend your happy when you’re blue. It isn’t very hard to do. The little things you haven’t got could be a lot if you’d pretend.
I used to be a moody girl because a bad thing made me depressed inside. And I didn’t fight to resist the sadness, and I felt so down and being frustrated. I had no friends, yeah, had but just a few close friends. I had no spirit to face this world because my mind said that I had problem and I must be sad. I had no reason to be happy and cheerful.
But now’s the time to change my mind. I should wake up from my long hybernate of passion. You will still get happiness when you have love, passion, friends, no matter how hard problems around you. Never let yourself down!! Just wake up. If you can’t, just pretend till you find a true happiness. Just try it right now.
***special thanks for Radit. You changed my mind, and you’re still my best brother***
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